DARN.
I'm feeling a teeny weeny stressed up.
I hate this kind of feeling.

Anyway, I'm kind of sorry for what a major impact i caused at band.
Grr.

Yea, and towards you and you alone, the one that appears to be my friend.

" YES.
YOU ARE MORE SUPERIOR THAN ME.
I AM NOTHING COMPARED TO YOU. "

Are you satisfied?
I don't understand at all.
I am too a being, don't i deserve any respect?

This is damn bullshit.
Just because of your one sweeping statement you affected the rest of my day.

Regardless whether do I hold any position, i am too a member.
Regardless of how ordinary and normal i am, regardless of how less contribution i do [ which i deem more than you for the past year], by the way you are talking, it's not a wonder why your members feel so reluctant to go for practices.

The sense of belonging, the feeling that you are needed is totally not there.

"Why would i want to go to some place where i am not needed?" some members will think.

Yes, in the case that you are more superior than me, you lack this.
You do not understand how we, the ordinary members, function and how we, the ordinary members, think.

Why must you, THE SUPERIOR, draw the line between us.
Must it be so distinct?
Moreover, you are not even the first in command.

Yes, i admit, the work I do is chicken feat.
Yet, who wad there to do it?
Did you, THE SUPERIOR, do it?

I may sound agitated, but this is already written in the most calm manner i can manage without any vulgarities flying all over.
I'm sorry, but can i double confirm that you are my friend?
Since it appears that you are so much more superior than me.

You suck in the way you think.
You should be glad that i did not state your name out.
Not that the aura around your name will blind the readers or my blog, not that you are too superior to be stated in my blog, but because i still respect you for the things you had done.
Though more than once you showed me total disrespect.


Anyway, thank you, all my dearest friends for being there for me.
Your presence is much appreciated.

ZHENGWEI: For your spastic-ity.
WEILUN: For sitting beside me in class.
PATRINA and YIANLU: For hearing me out recently.
TINGYAN and XINFANG: Though we have drifted apart, thanks, for just being there.
VIVIEN: For today and everything you did to the band.

AND !
Sorry, Vivien, for affecting the smooth operation of band.
I'm okay.
Just a break down in emotions.

I'll be okay.
As usual, I'm stronger than i think.
I will fight against the odds; and win.





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